Peace

Here is the blog post that I had started on Monday.

“Hey y’all. I would just like to say that I am officially spread too thin. My mind is all over. French, Spanish, Swahili, SAO, Kenya, Tanzania, getting forms, working, spending time with the Lord. And then sleeping, eating and going to the gym go by the wayside. Seriously, today I ate my juice plus vitamins for breakfast and a bag of chips and large cup of coffee for dinner.  Quality meals, let me just tell you.

I am getting more and more nervous that I don’t have it all figured out. I leave for Tanzania in less than a month. Crazy. I still have to figure out how I’m going to get from Tanzania to Kenya. I am waiting for my Kenyan Visa to come in. I need to pay for my travel insurance. I am waiting for the travel agent to get my ticket to me. I need to pack. I just found out that I had readings and a summary due yesterday… Luckily, I got to extend that date until to Friday. “

How things have changed. My life has calmed down. The Lord has given me peace, His peace and oh how sweet it is. Right now I am sitting in at my favorite coffee house about to work on the readings for my study abroad, try to get ahead for my French class, and if all goes well, go to bed before midnight because I agreed to work from 7-9 tomorrow morning… What was I thinking. Haha. I have been so blessed and I am so thankful for what the Lord has taught me in the last semester, the last month, but especially the last week.

Psalm 139 is pretty much what has gotten me through the whole week, so I’ve included it so that it may bless you as well. 

You have searched me, LORD,

   and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;

   you perceive my thoughts from afar.

 You discern my going out and my lying down;

   you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

   you, LORD, know it completely.

You hem me in behind and before,

   and you lay your hand upon me.

 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

   too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?

   Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

   if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,

   if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me,

   your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me

   and the light become night around me,”

even the darkness will not be dark to you;

   the night will shine like the day,

   for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;

   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

   your works are wonderful,

   I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you

   when I was made in the secret place,

   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;

   all the days ordained for me were written in your book

   before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!

   How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them,

   they would outnumber the grains of sand—

   when I awake, I am still with you.

If only you, God, would slay the wicked!

   Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!

They speak of you with evil intent;

   your adversaries misuse your name.

Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,

   and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?

I have nothing but hatred for them;

   I count them my enemies.

Search me, God, and know my heart;

   test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me,

   and lead me in the way everlasting.